First of all, Happy 21st birthday to me.. It doesnt feel as exciting as i thought it would be, but at least i get to celebrate it! :D

Met Abby fer awhile and i feel kinda guilty taking up his time. The whole time i was chatting away about myself, not really giving him a chance to talk about himself.. How the fuck can i be so selfish?! Grr.. All i want right now, is to make him happy.. I dont know if im capable, but at least im trying. :)

On the other hand, its harder to make someone else happy. Yes, we are still friends but the past is still an open wound to his flesh, not wanting to heal. Sometimes i think it's wrong of us to still be as close coz it doesnt give him time to get over things. Occasionally, he'd flare up and call me a liar and whatnots. Well, what can i do about it? Yes, its my fault i caused you to be who you are now and i am truly sorry. But i cannot love you anymore because ive moved on with my life, and you should too. You say it's easy for me, coz ive got someone to love. Yes, im glad he found me and im glad i have him.. Wouldnt it be easier if you just let it go, and accept me as a friend? Im sorry but i really dont know how im gonna explain it to you. I dont think i am worthy of giving you any advice from now..

Happy birthday Eva. I hope you grow up. I hope you have learnt from all your mistakes and i hope you dont screw up again.. I pray that you become a better person; be more spontaneous and not hide in your shell. Stop watching anymore cartoons coz its making you think like a little kid all over again. Last of all, start practicing real hard on your drums, since its the only form of exercise you get (Ooo look at those arms!) and only then will you be able to bash any fucker's head who gets in your way. And please fucking take care of your face. Buy more pimple cream and stop using Oxy! Grr..

And to Leon, the stupid bimbotic assfucker.. Fuck off and get outta my life coz i cant stand someone whos as bimbotic as you are! Im sure life will be so much better for your guitar not having you around! Ewl..

Gdnites!

(Sorry if this entry is filled with such angst.. Dont worry, im not like this in person.. Heh. :P)

First of all, Happy 21st birthday to me.. It doesnt feel as exciting as i thought it would be, but at least i get to celebrate it! :D

Met Abby fer awhile and i feel kinda guilty taking up his time. The whole time i was chatting away about myself, not really giving him a chance to talk about himself.. How the fuck can i be so selfish?! Grr.. All i want right now, is to make him happy.. I dont know if im capable, but at least im trying. :)

On the other hand, its harder to make someone else happy. Yes, we are still friends but the past is still an open wound to his flesh, not wanting to heal. Sometimes i think it's wrong of us to still be as close coz it doesnt give him time to get over things. Occasionally, he'd flare up and call me a liar and whatnots. Well, what can i do about it? Yes, its my fault i caused you to be who you are now and i am truly sorry. But i cannot love you anymore because ive moved on with my life, and you should too. You say it's easy for me, coz ive got someone to love. Yes, im glad he found me and im glad i have him.. Wouldnt it be easier if you just let it go, and accept me as a friend? Im sorry but i really dont know how im gonna explain it to you. I dont think i am worthy of giving you any advice from now..

Happy birthday Eva. I hope you grow up. I hope you have learnt from all your mistakes and i hope you dont screw up again.. I pray that you become a better person; be more spontaneous and not hide in your shell. Stop watching anymore cartoons coz its making you think like a little kid all over again. Last of all, start practicing real hard on your drums, since its the only form of exercise you get (Ooo look at those arms!) and only then will you be able to bash any fucker's head who gets in your way. And please fucking take care of your face. Buy more pimple cream and stop using Oxy! Grr..

And to Leon, the stupid bimbotic assfucker.. Fuck off and get outta my life coz i cant stand someone whos as bimbotic as you are! Im sure life will be so much better for your guitar not having you around! Ewl..

Gdnites!

(Sorry if this entry is filled with such angst.. Dont worry, im not like this in person.. Heh. :P)